week one of my new job is over. i feel pretty good about it, but i also feel exhausted. being there is almost fun. the environment is good; not perfect. i've made it through the week without any major screw-ups, which feels good, because my boss did his best to make me feel like screw-ups were inevitable in this job and that they'd cost the company hundreds of thousands of dollars when they did happen.
to be honest, the work so far is so easy, i can't believe it's the same job that was described to me. maybe they're just sheltering me; easing me into the job slowly so i don't get overwhelmed. but it's been such easy work to learn and do, that i can't believe my boss stressed to me before i took the job that a person who wasn't a college graduate wouldn't succeed in this job. he said that. and as far as i can tell, unless high school graduates really are on a 6th grade level, they'd be able to do this job no problem. in fact, i think any 16 year old could do this job. i'm glad i'm getting paid fairly well to do it.
company B that i applied to has not responded to me yet. i'm reasonable upset about that. i really want that job. this commute is not good for me. i take back what i said about not being tired at night. i must have only felt that way because i'd been overdoing the caffeine this week. i didn't have any caffeine today, and i'm really feeling it.
i started to feel really weak after work today, so i treated myself to a steak from the keg steakhouse and bar. it was probably the second best steak i've ever had, and i feel much better now.
so this whole week, i woke up and left my house by 5:30 am. i boarded the train with a newspaper and coffee, went to my job and came home. i feel like a proper grown-up. the whole nine yards and everything. almost.
was it all a big lie they told us when we were little that when people grow up, they stop liking music? because in two weeks, i'll be 27, and the only thing that's changed about me and music is that my grown-up job leaves me feeling too tired to want to go to a show. if i had better hours though, like i did when i was teaching, i'd be up for it every day. just like i was in virginia.
i will be that fifty year old still in work clothes standing behind the small punk crowd digging on the good street punk bands that constantly tour. if it kills me, i won't let a job stop me from being me.
i hope i get a job at company B and have the freedom to live the way i want.
oh, my new email is: xtina@element33.net
missy got around to getting me an email address. all future mail from friends and family is to go to that address and i will not change it.
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I'm glad to hear that you're settling in. It's pretty natural to be a bit stressed, and consequently, tired, during the first few weeks of a new job.
As far as music goes, I agree with you. I'm 29 and it hasn't tapered my enjoyment of music at all; I probably listen to an even wider variety of stuff. In my opinion, the people that lose their love of music because they were "too busy" or too old or something were just posers anyway.
you've always had good taste in music sean. not always what i like, but at least you always were passionate about it. you're right. there must just be tons and tons of posers out there. we'll see if having kids makes me quit liking music.
i haven't had sushi here, and i'm afraid to also. i don't think it'll be the same. how can i have sushi if the chef doesn't make my oki and volcano rolls the way i like them? and without kelly, why would i bother going at all?
i know i will eventually, but it'll just make me sad.
ha, i never understood how to live without music...but my mom did. I never understood that about her. just trying to figure out what to do for my daughter's birthday this year... lol. got her a dollhouse, and all this little miniature furniture to go with it. i'm so excited for when it gets here in the mail. i'll probably want to play with it, lol. always wanted one. i got tickets to go to the nin concert in d.c. in nov. woo hoo! so excited. got to wait a while though. ummm... my bro braden and his boyfriend were here this last week. sheldon too. it was kinda nice. still nervous though. you know? but i'm doing really great. made friends with a neighbor. i miss manigeh. i miss you. would still like to hang out with beth, but lost number. lol. i'd like to take her to the jcc with the kids to go to the noah's waterpark for the babie. its so perfect for babies. if you talk to her, let her know. give her my number is you still have
actually, i don't still have...i lost your number in the move. send it to me xtina@element33.net
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