i found out today that it's not so easy to quit your job. i have every reason to quit my job, my days are hellish, and i want to quit, but i'm too chicken. then i realized that i've never quit a job due to unhappiness before. all the jobs i've ever quit were because i was moving, and all the jobs i was really unhappy in, i've been fired from, or just simply let go due to non-fireworthy circumstances.
the reason i want to quit is that the women i work with get their kicks by nitpicking me (henpecking, if you will). all day long, it's bitch, bitch, bitch. i actually attempt to hide from them, which is hard to do when you work in a cubicle. so i hide by trying to make myself inconspicuous. i stop eating, drinking, speaking or breathing when the top bitch is near my cubicle. and i avoid speaking to everyone, altogether. i avoid asking questions unless i am really unsure as to what to do. and despite all that, all three women find something to bitch at me about daily.
yesterday, i got lectured about caps lock. here's how it happened. i was helping my partner catch up on her work from when she was on vacation. at the end of entering the data for this report, i am to take the bottom line data and enter it into a community file on the desktop. all the characters to be entered are numbers, except for one. i do this report, enter the bottom line, and go to lunch. the second i get back from lunch, my partner steps into my cubicle to have a talk with me. this is how the conversation went:
her: "why didn't you use the caps lock when you posted that info earlier?"
me: "um...i'm sorry?"
her: "i mean, when you saw that everyone else had used caps lock, why didn't you?"
me: "i don't...know."
i silently fumed about it for the rest of the day. why is one character written in lower case a big enough issue to speak to someone? how petty can they be? i thought we all learned in first grade that the upper case and lower case letters are connected to each other, but apparently my boss missed that day.
this is just one petty example of what happens all day long. i am talked down to, i am snapped at, and i am lectured almost every time i am spoken to. today i decided that i was just going to send in a letter of resignation and not go in tomorrow, and now i'm not sure. this is new territory to me, and i'm making up all manner of stupid excuses to not quit yet.
sigh.
today's quote:
Join now the ranks of all nations who refuse to go to war.
Refuse to pull the trigger of a gun for leaders 'round the world.
I'd rather fight to spread some tolerance & unity,
than buy into their nationalistic brainwashing;
killing mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers: common human beings.
Not savages, but people; like you, like me.
(Anti-Flag, "A New Kind of Army")
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
5 comments:
From my point of view you have two options:
1. You can quit the normal way (by speaking with the MAN, or by letter to the MAN) givng your two week notice, being thankful for the oppurtunity and claiming some BS reason of why you had to quit!
2. You can do a real shitty job, doing minimal to zero actual work and letting the Man decide when it is time to let you go.
When I quit my crappy job I did it by letter, mainly because it found it difficult to do it any other way! Good luck quitting!
Just do no work untill they fire you, then get unemployment.
I think you should go in there and be as tough as you are. You've faced far more difficult and consequential obstacles in your life, and looking graceful for the idiots shouldn't top your priority list. I think there's something to be said for your original plan to punch yourself in the stomach hard enough to induce vomiting, following it up with, "I quit."
-C
At least you won't feel bad about leaving.
I actually liked the guys I worked with (there just didn't happen to be any gals in my area), but the job itself was pretty miserable.
I told my supervisor in person, but I also had the 'excuse' that school was going to be prohibitive of continued employment.
Personally, I'm to the point where I'd have told those people off, and then used the conflict of personalities or whatever to bail.
If you remember that you don't value their opinions of you, it's a lot easier to tell them what you really think.
On a not completely unrelated note... Regarding quitting, I just wanted to say Hi, since I posted in a previous entry after a very long time of no real communication with you. Anyways, good luck with the whole job thing. It really sucks when the people you work with harass you all day long, etc.
Oh, btw, Yay me... over one month and no Smoking. After almost 11 years of smoking I think I may actually finally kick this horrible habbit for good.
Wally
Post a Comment