just checking in

today i went to work a full hour late, took a full hour break (for a six hour workday) and blew out of there an hour and a half early. hehe, i'm a slacker. i just hate that place now. i want a different job (one that pays) so badly that i can hardly stand to go into work. not that i don't like actually training dogs. but i only train two or three days a week and the rest of the time it's demeaning crap. if i don't get a teaching job and i do keep this job, i'm going to take several steps to make this job better.
today my crazy, mean boss was on a friendly day. she smiled at me every time she saw me, made small talk and offered me pretzels. it's days like these that i almost hate more than any other day with her. it makes me spooked the rest of the time. it makes it so hard to know when it's safe to approach her. that's what makes her scarier than any other boss i've had. she's so mean and scary most of the time, and then sometimes, she's downright genial and you never know what to expect. i generally just try to avoid her. if i don't talk to her, and i don't ever look for her when i have a question or problem, and when she talks to me, i end the conversation as quickly as possible by complying with everything, then i have less to worry about.